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Of Bleak Thoughts and Inconclusive Emotions

Mon Jun 29, 2009, 5:19 AM
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Disconnected - Face To Face
  • Reading: Relentless by Dean Koontz
  • Watching: the empty channels on my TV...
  • Playing: The Legendary Starfy
  • Eating: nothing at the moment
  • Drinking: a month old opened bottle of water
Yeah, it seems like I disappeared for quite the while again. Over the past couple months I seem to have been going through the works, including a break down which resulted in some therapy and some suggested medication which I refuse to take from time to time. I swear, you talk about certain things to some people and they'll deem you suicidal. However, for whatever reasons, I prefer not to be counted as another statistic.

Even though I do not wish to recall the events of the past several months, I'll say that whatever did take place has left me with a sort of bitter-sweet mindset. Something in semblance to a not so subtle taste left in your mouth after a meal. I sometimes don't know what to think or how to feel about certain things anymore. You could say that I'm floating in limbo at the moment.

Aside from my ambivalent mindset, I guess the summer has done me a bit of good. After all, I did graduate although grudgingly so. Probably not for the reasons you might expect. Less time to think about school, but more time to ponder about my least favorite subject, myself. I'm pretty sure this all sounds like insane gibberish or useless banter and I do apologize.

Enough about matters about my nature. I suppose I should just get going with what really matters at the moment. Even with my trepidation of the times ahead, I still find myself really looking forward to Anime Expo. It's bascially going to end up being the pinnacle of my summer. (The fact that the convention is in a couple of days only serves to heighten my excitement.) Nevertheless, I still have some last minute things to finish before I can really relax.

I promise that the next journal entry will be much more bearable. Sorry about force-feeding you my shit and thanks to those of you who listen. (Maybe I'll see some of you at the con? Don't hesitate to come and say hi. Hell, it'd make my day.)

Over and out. (I'm heading to bed.)

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  • Current Residence: In your mind...
  • Interests: music, writing, video games, cosplay, medical practices (surgery & diagnosis), military, food
  • Favourite movie: Too many to list...
  • Favourite band or musician: Rammstein, The Spill Canvas, Three Days Grace, Chevelle, Billy Talent, The Dresden Dolls and more...
  • Favourite genre of music: Neue Deutsche Härte, alternative rock, Jrock, post-grunge, classical, techno
  • Favourite artist: Anyone who actually draws~
  • Favourite poet or writer: Anyone who can keep my attention~
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • MP3 player of choice: ipod, itunes (feel teh Apple)
  • Shell of choice: A snail shell? o3o
  • Wallpaper of choice: The kind that you see at your grandma's house.
  • Skin of choice: Maybe yours? *licks*
  • Favourite game: Silent Hill, Phantasy Star, Resident Evil, Final Fantasy and much more...
  • Favourite gaming platform: Playstation 2, Gamecube, DS, PSP, Wii, Xbox 360
  • Favourite cartoon character: Captain K'nuckles and Flapjack (Marvelous Misadventures of Flapjack)
  • Personal Quote: "Hell, I'll do it anyway!"
  • Tools of the Trade: Pencils, Word Perfect, Rapidograph (Technical) Pens, Prisma Colored Pencils and Acrylic Paint

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No problem, keep up the good work~ <3

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Soon you will come to realize that ducks are superior beings, able to conquer all sorts of terrain (land, water, air)!

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i'll try to :salute:

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T~T I hope (I paid out all my money for a commission right before I got banned. T_T now I cant see itttt)LOL
I just remembered that you had actually paid me so I didn't want to screw you over haha

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Aw, thanks. I really appreciate it~ I've commissioned some people who seem to drop off the face of the earth and never get back to me after I paid. D: *squeezes into the small text box* XD

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Soon you will come to realize that ducks are superior beings, able to conquer all sorts of terrain (land, water, air)!

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xD I wouldn't mind as much but that account was... OLD XDDDDD like REALLY old lol~ :/ i started a new account but I cant make any art money without a trading pass so... >_>"

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So, you'll probably head back to your old one after everything gets settled? I mean, my account isn't that old, in fact it's not very old at all, but I still luffles it. ;3;

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Soon you will come to realize that ducks are superior beings, able to conquer all sorts of terrain (land, water, air)!

Duckie Invasion <3 (coming to a nation near you!)
I will definitely try to. :< I don't mind this younger one but it's so new I still cant even get a trading pass :/ boooo~

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